the preacher says it's impossible for a woman to please god and fuck other women. an abomination. but god told me she was pleased after we finished. how could it be abominable when god is as fem as the coarse curls peeping through my panty lines relentless like the waters sicced on noah. and as the blood which seeps through surprising nobody but the men it sheds for. god is fem as the warmth of my mother’s hand small and slightly calloused healing my lower back with vicks vapor rub and her prayers. fem as the first bite that felt familiar. lips sticky from the apple. god is as fem as mary’s womb swollen with the promise of hope and some sort of peace planted and replanted again and again after every storm until it can no longer be ignored. ~~~
Anduriña is a queer Panamanian poet and singer based in Newark, NJ. She graduated with honors from the creative writing program at Adelphi University, where she received the Donald Everett Axinn Awards for Poetry and Fiction. Her work explores grief, loss, intimacy and the spirituality that has permeated her life since childhood. She lives with her mom and plants.